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Update to Previous Post (Observation: Time Alone)

 Today Jane is stuttering terribly. And she had a bit of diarrhea at school. A tiny accident in her pants. She did not tell the teacher. Waited till she got home to tell me. 

When I picked her up from school I looked at her face and knew what'd happened. I'm trying so hard to set her up for success in regards to the lying issue. So, I waited till we were home and alone. I had her pick out a piece of candy from a bowl. I held it and said she could have it if she told the truth. Then I told her I'd be checking her pants to see if she lied. I put the tightest parameters on her I could think of, plus held out a reward. 

I said, "tell the truth. Did you poop yourself at school?"

She said yes. 

I was so relieved she actually told the truth I didn't even care. She said she just couldn't get there in time. I understand; accidents happen. But, how bizarre is it that my daughter said she pooped herself and I immediately reward her with candy. 

So, why is she stuttering? It's the worst it ever gets. Stress over the diarrhea? Stress over finally having to tell the truth when she so adamantly lies and hides most of the time? 

I dunno.

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